The Thing Is

The thing is
to love life
to love it even when you have no
stomach for it, when everything that you’ve held
dear crumbles like burnt paper in your hands
and your throat is filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you so heavily
it is like heat, tropical, moist
thickening the air so it’s heavy like water
more fit for gills than lungs.
When grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief.
How long can a body withstand this, you think,
and yet you hold life like a face between your palms,
a plain face, with no charming smile
or twinkle in her eye,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.

Ellen Bass

My Aunt sent this poem to me just a little while ago. I have meant to share it at some point, today feels like a good day to do so.

So when the preverbal shit hits the fan, remember that it will all come out in the wash.